Fathers day

Today is a difficult dayfor me.  I have lost the three men who were my Fathers.  One was genetically my father, He  died of cancer 8 years ago.  One was my father because he choose to be, He died a year ago.  One was a father not by choice, but by cirumstances, He died 3 years ago.    I have Uncles who are great men, and by example taught me to be a man.  My Brother, is probably the best example of what a Father is.  He is the perfect mix of strength, love, and humour.  I love watching him with his kids.  They love him so much and also have a healthy fear of him.  When I have children of my own, I hope I am like him.

It's a weird day today, I feel abit like I am outside looking in.  I am not a father and I am fatherless.

I have to remember that just because you are not genetically a father, that you can not influence peoples lives.  I have the privledge of working with so many amazing kids, There is a few of them who have changed my life.  They make me see the world diffrently.  I want to change the world for them so that they won't have to struggle, I want to help protect them.  I have comforted them when they were upset, dried tears, given hugs, spoken words of encouragement.  I have loved them as if they were my own. 

Today I received a text wishing me a happy fathers day, wishing me love and saying that I was missed.

I know that I have done something right. 

So to those who are Fathers or who are Father figures.  Happy Day